2014/05/30

In Spite Of Oneself

身不由己 In spite of oneself

半夜睡不着觉 ,只好在床上想东想西
最近生活真的不想话 , 真的感觉在白活
没有烦恼 , 这就是烦恼
整天就在等待 神魔之塔 的体力 然后一直玩
没有体力了还是去开着 主页面 发呆

Lately i been losing sleep ,and had a bed and thoughts
Recent life really do not want to keep on, I really feel in waste
Without worries , this is the trouble also
Waiting the Tower of savoirs 's energy restore and keep playing.
Without energy but i still log in and daze.

24/5/2014 

这日子 改变我很多 ,不...该说折磨我到失望 ,然后崩溃 ,再坚持!
什么日子? 我的处男蒲夜咯 ~ 哈哈哈
那天后我又懂了 我的问题所在 ,改善就容易了

That day changed me a lot, nope... should be say it afflict me till disappointed, then collapse, and more persist at last
What is that day? My First day of night life =3= (remedy), haha
After that day I also understand where my problem , it will be easy to improve then.

散会 The End

朋友们一天一天的开始 习惯 大学生活 ,嘴上一直硬着说到自己大学也不错
其实是输不起 。 新朋友 , 新生活 , 新方式 ,新话题 ,新鲜感 。。。
个个我都输到跌地... 以前 一个 gerena clan 五个人一队 , 一起打 ,一起笑 ,一起说 。
现在 全部都显示 offline , 这不是我爱玩 ,只是他们的生活都更新了。
天下没有不散的宴会,我知道 ,可是 我也没有下一个宴会 在等着我
所以我一直找 ,一直看 ,一直等...

Friends, day by day, getting used to college life, has hardened my mouth how good my college is ...
Actually afford to lose. New friends, new life, new ways, new topics, fresh. . .
I have lost all of them , a Gerena clan before a BwG team of five people playing together, laugh together, and said together.
However now all are showing offline, this is not i too love to play it , is because they updated their college new life.
There is no ending banquet, I know , but i don have the next group to me
So I've been looking for , have been seeking , been waiting for ...

永远的迟一步 The late forever

你的项链,定好了 ,也收到了。
可是一切一切 又是天意弄人 , 当初决定买下这礼物是因为 你没有任何的项链
可是,我一收到你的项链时,打算送给你的时候 ,你的照片中
也是有一条 属于你名字的项链...
I have ordered and received the necklace which belong to you 
However everything is fate playing me , that day had decided to buy this gift because you do not have any necklace.
However , when i received your necklace , intended to give you. 
Suddenly your lately photo , there is also a necklace which your name.

我花在你身上的任何东西 , 都注定是浪费的吗?
Is it I spent anything on you is waste?

未来 Future

我那些改变自己的行为 , 并不是想成为红人
更不想成为人们的笑话 ,只是不想被看小
我会让自己变得 骂人家 ,无得反驳
无理取闹,无得反对 的境界 。
这一切切都是为了我能做回我自己
不再理会他人感受 ,搞得自己什么都不敢 ,信心没了...

I changed my behaviour , not trying to become The Reds People
And no want to become a joke of them , just do not want to be looked down.
I will let myself more stronger , powerful to talk them and nothing refute.
Vexatious , but cant oppose 's realm
I do it in order to become myself
No longer care about their feelings , and cause myself afraid to do anything , the confident was gone.